Life in this crazy goddamn planet full of hippies...
Wuteva! I do what I want!
hmmm.....they totally changed this blogger dealie. it looks weird now. u probably can't see it on the actual webpage but yeah its different.
i still feel semi-lost and useless.
i bought that jason mraz cd even though i made fun of rocky for liking his song "the remedy". its really catchy and this whole cd is pretty damn good. i dunno. i really like it......its nice. i really like this "absolutely zero" song. anyway. this guy is cool. me likes.
work has been wacko.....too many people cuz this stupid exhibit is leaving. finally. i went out with my co-workers today to get pizza. well one EX-co-worker and 2 co-workers. i guess i was kinda rude at one point cuz it was really obvious that i didn't want to go. i care but then again i don't. i'm not the only one that didn't want to go and i'm sorry u can totally read me just by looking at my face.
wutever. i'm tired. this weekend is gonna be shit b/c of this damn exhibit. after that its gonna be totally dead. great. no more $$$$. i'm out, south park is on.
HOLLA! ever wonder what a conversation between me and rocky is like? no? thats too bad.....here's one we had just now, its the whole convo! whew!:
DrUidQueEnN: yo
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: hey
DrUidQueEnN: sup
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: dling porn
DrUidQueEnN: sweet
DrUidQueEnN: hardcore?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: yeah a little bit
DrUidQueEnN: nice
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: actually im dling music
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: gay music
DrUidQueEnN: porn music?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: no
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i can just sing bow chicka bow ow
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: and thats music
DrUidQueEnN: yeah rite, like THAT does anything
DrUidQueEnN: they're showing American pie
DrUidQueEnN: ugh
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: like the music supposed to do anything anyway, whore
DrUidQueEnN: lol
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: eww really?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: where?
DrUidQueEnN: 72
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: ohh yeah thats expected from fx
DrUidQueEnN: yeah but its retarded
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: wut r u up to? watching porn?
DrUidQueEnN: yeah
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: porn = amer pie
DrUidQueEnN: actually i'm watching Felicity
DrUidQueEnN: but its on commercial
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: im supposed to go to the gay pride parade this saturday
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: (that's my way of coming out to you)
DrUidQueEnN: i will make no comment
DrUidQueEnN: i will accept you for what u are
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: exactly
DrUidQueEnN: i may hit u
DrUidQueEnN: not hit ON you
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: a straight girl... yeah
DrUidQueEnN: i c
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: for being straight?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: leslie, we try to fight discrimination in this country
DrUidQueEnN: lemme guess....this gay parade....on westheimer?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: ummmm somewhere in that area i'd guess
DrUidQueEnN: lemme guess
DrUidQueEnN: with jorge?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: lol
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: and brittani?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: and then like marianne and megan wanna go i dunno
DrUidQueEnN: lol
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: why do these gays have to have it at night
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i dont really like flaming homos too much
DrUidQueEnN: um, its gonna be full of 'em
DrUidQueEnN: esp. if its at night
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: lol
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: not that i'd expect this but...
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i'd be pretty damn scared if i got hit on by a dike
DrUidQueEnN: yeah ok yeah
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: like a big ass butch dike
DrUidQueEnN: i'd run like the wind
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: ::shudder:: lesbians
DrUidQueEnN: lol
DrUidQueEnN: have fun
DrUidQueEnN: keep them in line
DrUidQueEnN: lol
DrUidQueEnN: man i hate this kikkoman commercial
DrUidQueEnN: its so retarded
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: the one where kids are flying
DrUidQueEnN: yeah
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: why? i directed it.
DrUidQueEnN: thats y i hate it
DrUidQueEnN: not b/c the kids are flying
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: and YOU came up with the concept one drunken night
DrUidQueEnN: but just b/c u directed it
DrUidQueEnN: i know i did
DrUidQueEnN: and it was a great idea
DrUidQueEnN: but U ruined it
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: ...yeah
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i highly doubt that
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: just admit it... ur jealous of me
DrUidQueEnN: of what?
DrUidQueEnN: u're crappy directingness?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: and the genius i've become without you
DrUidQueEnN: or the fact that u're going to a parade full of flaming homos?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: that more
DrUidQueEnN: ugh, WHATever
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: do u know what the first cd jorge ever bought was?
DrUidQueEnN: backstreet boys?
DrUidQueEnN: oh wait that was me
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: no
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: its gayer than that
DrUidQueEnN: holy fuck
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: lol
DrUidQueEnN: whats gayer than that?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: it was like m.s. time
DrUidQueEnN: milli vanilli?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: .......
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: aqua
DrUidQueEnN: holy fuck
DrUidQueEnN: barbie girl???????
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: ...lol
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: YES
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: he showed me in his room
DrUidQueEnN: "i'm a barbie girl, in a barbie world"
DrUidQueEnN: "made of plastic, its so fantastic"
DrUidQueEnN: or some shit like that
DrUidQueEnN: wow
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: he told me the other day he bought the spice girls tape
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: bc he lost it before
DrUidQueEnN: i'm upset
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i know!
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: but like WOW
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: most of the time he's quiet and says he reads and stuff
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: then he tells me that his first cd was aqua
DrUidQueEnN: thats crazy
DrUidQueEnN: barbie girl
DrUidQueEnN: man
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: supposedly straight chicks like guy on guy action
DrUidQueEnN: where the fuck did u read tht
DrUidQueEnN: that*
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: jorge told me
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: most straight girls hes talked to told him
DrUidQueEnN: he must talk to some fucked up girls
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: lol
DrUidQueEnN: U didn't tell him this did u?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: that i like gay stuff? no
DrUidQueEnN: good b/c i thought we already agreed on this
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: lol
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: shoot straight porn scares me
DrUidQueEnN: i will agree
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i really want to give u that 80s cd
DrUidQueEnN: zap that bitch over
DrUidQueEnN: lol
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: if only i could
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: if i were magical sure
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: like ur duck
DrUidQueEnN: ::sigh:: my magical duck
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: u saw him today
DrUidQueEnN: who
DrUidQueEnN: wha
DrUidQueEnN: huh
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: ur duck
DrUidQueEnN: yes
DrUidQueEnN: my ducky is beautiful
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: more than ur pig?
DrUidQueEnN: my pig is beautiful in a different way
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: so if you got a cow, what would he be?
DrUidQueEnN: plentiful cow
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: wow
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: frog?
DrUidQueEnN: enhanted frog
DrUidQueEnN: enchanted*
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: cat?
DrUidQueEnN: goddamn it
DrUidQueEnN: i don't know!
DrUidQueEnN: spiritual
DrUidQueEnN: spiritual cat
DrUidQueEnN: magical duck. lucky pig, plentiful cow, enchanted frog and spiritual cat
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: not gonna give them like human names?
DrUidQueEnN: no stupid!
DrUidQueEnN: that would be disrespectul!
DrUidQueEnN: these animals have healing powers
DrUidQueEnN: they aren't ur ordinary animals rocky
DrUidQueEnN: they're special
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: bc u say so?
DrUidQueEnN: um YEAH
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: what makes them so special?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: what healing powers?
DrUidQueEnN: damn my gift!
DrUidQueEnN: do u not see their specialness?
DrUidQueEnN: (y do u ask so many goddamn questions?)
DrUidQueEnN: (my bs-ing can only go so far)
DrUidQueEnN: just having them near me changes the aura
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: bc im doing a paper on special animals
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: and what they do to their owners
DrUidQueEnN: wow
DrUidQueEnN: (its funny that I just said WOW cuz i'm kinda the one coming up with the shit)
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: yeah i see
DrUidQueEnN: this guy on felicity is hot
DrUidQueEnN: i don't know his name
DrUidQueEnN: but damn
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i see
DrUidQueEnN: i'll tell u when to look
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: awright
DrUidQueEnN: now
DrUidQueEnN: go
DrUidQueEnN: 48
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: oh simon rex
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: well duh
DrUidQueEnN: thats his name
DrUidQueEnN: i was like........wtf is his name
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: yes
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: he had a short stint as a porn star
DrUidQueEnN: yeah he's hot
DrUidQueEnN: i don't want to know that
DrUidQueEnN: and i don't want U to know that
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: lol
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: psh whatever
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: hey jorge says we should pursue our stalking business
DrUidQueEnN: ok
DrUidQueEnN: its easier now
DrUidQueEnN: we have cars
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: with cars?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: yep yep
DrUidQueEnN: mmhmm
DrUidQueEnN: and anonymous internet access
DrUidQueEnN: uh
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: lol
DrUidQueEnN: u laugh
DrUidQueEnN: but i kid u not
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: oh i know i know
DrUidQueEnN: plz lets do it
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: ur more serious about it
DrUidQueEnN: it gives me something to do
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: thats why ur the boss
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: and im just ur lackey
DrUidQueEnN: i'm also creepier about it
DrUidQueEnN: lol
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: how r u creepier?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: u also say that like its an honor.....
DrUidQueEnN: i actually do crazy shit like quickly tear down my UH parking permit as i enter the Art Institute student garage
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: ahhh
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i forgot
DrUidQueEnN: OR
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: oh jeez
DrUidQueEnN: get some mexican lady to open a gate for me
DrUidQueEnN: so that i may then proceed to look for a certain car
DrUidQueEnN: but i did this for you!
DrUidQueEnN: lol
DrUidQueEnN: i'm just dumb
DrUidQueEnN: thats what it is
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: lol
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: u know its hard to label the fact that ppl consider ur stalkiness a standard
DrUidQueEnN: how so
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: one time jacky was telling me about the juan guy and she was like "i wasnt stalking him like leslie does"
DrUidQueEnN: lol
DrUidQueEnN: well fuck me
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: or i was reading jorges journal and he said i was a good stalker
DrUidQueEnN: haha
DrUidQueEnN: see
DrUidQueEnN: we were made to do this
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i think u mean U
DrUidQueEnN: and actually i think the actual profession is called.....PRIVATE DETECTIVE
DrUidQueEnN: but yeah
DrUidQueEnN: stalker is fine
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: cuz jorge mentioned u
DrUidQueEnN: jeez
DrUidQueEnN: wut'd he say
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: ummm bc we were wondering who we should stalk and he's like NOT albert
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: then i told him that U drove in looking for him
DrUidQueEnN: goddamn it
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: and then he pretty much said that u'd be good about it
DrUidQueEnN: hmm
DrUidQueEnN: well
DrUidQueEnN: u're still my lackey
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i know i know
DrUidQueEnN: (his last name is Cutright)
DrUidQueEnN: (simon rex cutright)
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: ohh
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: wow
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: the stalking has begun
DrUidQueEnN: lol
DrUidQueEnN: and he has green eyes
DrUidQueEnN: and he's 28
DrUidQueEnN: are all hot guys 28?
DrUidQueEnN: he speaks spanish
DrUidQueEnN: gay porn
DrUidQueEnN: he did gay porn
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: thats not helping
DrUidQueEnN: i know
DrUidQueEnN: my libido went....way down....(sound of bomb falling and hitting ground)
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: at least hes open minded
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: lol
DrUidQueEnN: spare me ur optimism
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: fine fine
DrUidQueEnN: i feel a little hurt
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: by this info?
DrUidQueEnN: yes
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: im sorry
DrUidQueEnN: that and the fact that i just hit my foot on the desk
DrUidQueEnN: that hurt too
DrUidQueEnN: i am posting this entire conversation
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: oh jeez
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i'm listening to eye of the tiget
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: tiger
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: lol
DrUidQueEnN: again?
DrUidQueEnN: mmhmm
DrUidQueEnN: man
DrUidQueEnN: i have to volunteer 2morrow
DrUidQueEnN: its not busy in the morning rite?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: not really
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i swear they only need us there for computers
DrUidQueEnN: sexcellent
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i walk around half the time
DrUidQueEnN: yes, i may buy my pianist cd
DrUidQueEnN: that or steal it
DrUidQueEnN: wutever
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: cool cool
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i hate that its that easy
DrUidQueEnN: i know huh?
DrUidQueEnN: they're jews
DrUidQueEnN: its just one cd
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i swear the security cameras never point at the front desk
DrUidQueEnN: i did not notice
DrUidQueEnN: does the museum open at 9?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: yea
DrUidQueEnN: oh
DrUidQueEnN: i thought maybe perhaps 10
DrUidQueEnN: gimme a free hour
DrUidQueEnN: but alrite
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: lol
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: last friday i ddnt want to sit there so suzanne sent me to that other building
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: and i counted butterflies
DrUidQueEnN: there's another building?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: which is exactly what it sounds like
DrUidQueEnN: butterflies??????
DrUidQueEnN: where?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: yeah the one that looks like a drive thru bank
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: fake ones
DrUidQueEnN: oh
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: like paper ones
DrUidQueEnN: good
DrUidQueEnN: i hate real butterflies
DrUidQueEnN: they're creepy
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: tooo delicate
DrUidQueEnN: they're like insects only with pretty colors
DrUidQueEnN: not exactly websters definition of a butterfly
DrUidQueEnN: but it works for me
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: leslie beltran's yeah
DrUidQueEnN: well hello guy pearce
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: he's ok sometimes
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: that interview yes
DrUidQueEnN: yeah
DrUidQueEnN: lol
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: in the count of blah blah blah no
DrUidQueEnN: yeah no
DrUidQueEnN: that wasn't pretty
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: he was fugly in that
DrUidQueEnN: yeah he was also evil
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: lol
DrUidQueEnN: i suppose i should say toodle loo
DrUidQueEnN: for i must help jews in the morn
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: its the least u can do?
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: as an anti-semite, right?
DrUidQueEnN: sure
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: i see
DrUidQueEnN: :-D
DrUidQueEnN: smile!
DrUidQueEnN: lol
DrUidQueEnN: ok my little filipino friend
DrUidQueEnN: i must depart from u know
DrUidQueEnN: now*
DrUidQueEnN: wow i suck
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: alright picante pants
DrUidQueEnN: i shall phone you 2morrow
DrUidQueEnN: and i'll probably go that CAM
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: alright
DrUidQueEnN: and see those cartoon thingies
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: go go
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: its cool
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: watch black stuntman
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: yes
DrUidQueEnN: i shall
DrUidQueEnN: ok
DrUidQueEnN: ttyl
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: ull like the music
LiTtLeAzNcHiCk: night
DrUidQueEnN: i better
DrUidQueEnN: nite
disclaimer: i am not an anti-semite. i'm just full of shit.
i'm cleaning my room and listening to semi-sad, semi-just plain upsetting music.i feel very empty sometimes. like there's something i should be doing but i'm not. i should learn to take the opportunities that are given to me instead of making up excuses for not taking them. ::sigh:: the problem is that i don't know what it is i should be doing. nothing really makes me happy anymore. everything is so blah. i need something different. the question is what. what do i need????? ah! i mean if i'm not working, i'm either at home sitting on my ass or out with ppl eating and shopping.....which, don't get me wrong, thats fun and all.....but it just seems like i should be doing something a little deeper than that......for me. i dunno, i just woke up feeling that way today....although i guess i've been thinking about this for a little while but yeah.
whats great is that in my semi-sad, semi-just plain upsetting music there's this song that is so perfect for how i feel now as well as how i felt a year ago during this time.....its "warning" by incubus.
Bat your eyes girl
Be otherworldly
Count your blessings
Seduce a stranger
What's so wrong with
Being happy
Kudos to those who
See through sickness
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
I suggest we
Learn to love ourselves before it's
Made illegal
When will we learn?
When will we change?
Just in time to
See it all fall down
Those left standing...will make millions
Writing books on the way it should have been
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
Floating in this
Cosmic jacuzzi
We are like frogs oblivious
To the water
Starting to boil
No one flinches
We all float face down
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
rite now i just really admire ppl that actually DO things that they personally enjoy and are good at. i'm not good at anything and i guess thats what the main problem is. like people that write, or sing, or just DO something out of their love for it. i'm really jealous of that. i guess i'll go back to cleaning my room now.
oh and i didn't volunteer today. i changed my shift to another day in the morning.
i feel like getting in my car and driving for a very long time to somewhere far away.
uh huh. yeah this ho pissed me off at work today. stupid f-ing b****. she made me SOOOOOO angry. i walked around looking for her afterwards.....i don't know exactly what i wanted to do or say (probably nothing) but UGH!i wanted to grab her by her nappy hair and drag her fat ass out on the street. she asked me a question and so i answered it and she just gave me the biggest fucking attitude. AHHHHHHH! and yes i know that i tried not to cuss at first and then i did, and i don't really feel like going back and fixing that. i don't get pissed off that easily ppl........i get annoyed, but not pissed.......and this fat ass ho just pissed me the fuck off.
calm down leslie.
so 2morrow i'm supposed to go volunteer. i should probably go. i just realized june will soon be over. thats not good. that means school is gonna start. eek! ok yeah no i really do want to go back kinda sorta. i miss playing pool. how come i haven't gone to play pool? i miss that! damn it i will go. someday. i am supposed to join a gym. its expensive. ridiculously expensive. i may not go through with it for that reason.
i am getting annoyed with situations at work. not with my co-workers......ok yeah no....its them. they make me feel very very annoyed sometimes. the young'uns are cool. (by young'uns i mean ppl my age and like a couple of years older). they're cool and all. but them old ppls. ugh. our department is SOOOOO messed up. its retarded. i mean first of all.......its a bunch of chicks....there's ONE guy. u know what happens when its a bunch of chicks. trouble's-a-brewin'. its crazy. it gets frustrating.
goddamn it vh-1.......bruce springsteen????? .......is melissa ethridge telling me that "Born in USA" is the coolest rock n' roll song ever supposed to make me like the song? oh look now its britney spears. where is she anyway? what happened to her? interesting. i guess i don't really care rite now. i'm upset b/c they didn't show Felicity. yes i'm still on that Felicity train.
oh wow.....grandmaster flash. "i'm try-ing not to lose my head, ha ha, ha ha........wel-come to the edge....i'm try-ing not to lose my head."
u know who i REALLY don't like now? madonna. she screwed up big time. i dunno wtf she did. but she did somethin'.......and it wasn't good. ever since that movie that everyone said sucked. i don't recall the name and i dont really care to. i'm rambling. i should stop.
